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Ficlet: Hopes Expired 
11 19 08
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Title: Hopes Expired
Rating: PG
Pairing: Gen (what? I can't help it, the gen keeps trying to lure me over, and I am weak!)
Warnings: None
Spoilers: For 1x09 'Excalibur'
Summary: Tristan is the last thing this is about

 

Hopes Expired

 

The Black Knight does not eat or sleep or breathe; he knows not life or warmth or mercy.

Arthur watches him. He sees failure. He sees inadequacy, a rising star burnt out. He sees Owain and Pellinor and Morgana’s favour red against the white sand, fluttering earthbound against the dust, the vibrancy of its hue dulled against the crimson life leaking away into nothing. The Black Knight’s stillness speaks to him of disappointed dreams and frustrated hopes.

Uther watches him. He sees Igraine behind that shuttered visor; he sees Nemesis. The two are one and the same. He sees the reaper, empty shell grinning up at him, Arthur cold and dead and never alive in the palm of his armoured hand. He sees a hunter, a hellhound unleashed to stalk him through the long corridors of his guilt. He watches the Black Knight and the monolithic face of his own grief stares back.

Nimueh watches him. She sees completion. She sees transformation. She sees injustice and justice both, twin faces twisted and rotten with years of festering decay. She sees the gaping void of past and present stretching forward step by step to devour the future, the manifestation of absences that should never have been. She has raised these aching bones, old grievances, chill from their tomb, and now she watches over them. Igraine she sees, but not Tristan; never Tristan.

Alone in the cold and the dark the Black Knight stands.

 

 

Comments 
11 19 08 (UTC)
Thank you! It's just gen makes me go all thinky and then I worry, that's all.

I just got really taken with all the images of Tristan standing there in the dark that they littered through that ep and then just how utterly terrifying it must be to face that kind of foe, and then voila! Gen!

My slash brain has taken a holiday for tonight; hopefully all will be in working order again tomorrow ;p

11 19 08 (UTC)
Thinky-gen is good... I know what you mean, though, because I'm having to force a 'thinky' piece of mine to be slash so I can x-post it. ^_^

I really love this, and I agree with you that the idea of Tristan just standing there was very poignant. Arthur's terror, for me, was most perfectly displayed him him striking out at Merlin with his sword - in my slashy little mind, he'd rather cut his own hand off than actually hurt Merlin, so doing something like that just shows how much the whole situation got to him.

And your slashy mind will be back soon, I'm sure... but I shan't mind either way if we get little gems like this. ^_^
11 19 08 (UTC)
Everyone was so highly strung in that ep (even the dragon lol) and that was an awesome scene. I really love the look Merlin gave Arthur when he did that (and the way he swallowed omg!)
11 19 08 (UTC)
*grin* I know! ESPECIALLY the Dragon, with the roaring and everything. Though it was his advice which made Merlin throw the pretty sword into a random lake...

Merlin's little swallow, nod and resigned-smile after tha happened nearly made me pass out with glee. Colin Morgan is such a fantastic actor, and I want to glomp Merlin every episode. *sigh* Oh, this show...
11 19 08 (UTC)
The 'if you had seen what I have seen' stuff makes my gen-fic brain go crazy, but I have managed to work slash into it too. The dragon is good fun.

I could write endless odes to Colin's acting skills. Endlesss. Odes. In latin if I had to.

Anyway, I'm calling it a night for now. I'll likely catch you tomorrow though :P
11 19 08 (UTC)
That's because Colin rocks my socks. *grins*

Very likely. ^_^ Sleep well!
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